I am to talk of university, but even the word gives off an unpleasant feeling. Heh.
Udah kira-kira lima bulan sejak yours truly mulai bener-bener mikirin univ. Entah kenapa konklusinya menjadi amerika. Terkesan jauh, namun motto tetap ada: gunakanlah berkat Hyang Widhi jika memang ada, tak semua orang segitu terberkati. Dan sejak saat itulah mulai les SAT (Student Assessment Test), UN Standar US, beserta pernak-perniknya seperti SAT Subject (Mat IPA & Kimia), TOEFL, dsb. Beribu-ribu esai dibuat, sampai-sampai harus dikategorikan dalam folder-folder. Esai-esai pertama: perlu dibuat outline, ide-ide, dan pin-poin yang penting diutarakan. Sampai esai ke-5 sudah lanccar dibuat kerangka di kepala. Entah. Setelah tahun baruan yang digunakan untuk apply univ, I'm supposed to be done.
But, no. Masih ada tahap-tahap selanjutnya. Guru-guru yang dikejar untuk isi rekomendasi, interrview-interview yang menyusul...
Ah, interviews.
Honestly it has never been specifically uttered, what the interview entails. People panic if they get one (What was wrong with my application?) and if they don't get one (Was it not enough?). If I get an interview, does it mean that I passed the first filtering? Or is it that they are not sure where to put me. Lots of amazing candidates don't get interviews and non-amazing ones who do. You never know, and that's more unnerving, in my opinion.
I've had one interview so far, and as far as I can tell, it went pretty damn well.
Udah kira-kira lima bulan sejak yours truly mulai bener-bener mikirin univ. Entah kenapa konklusinya menjadi amerika. Terkesan jauh, namun motto tetap ada: gunakanlah berkat Hyang Widhi jika memang ada, tak semua orang segitu terberkati. Dan sejak saat itulah mulai les SAT (Student Assessment Test), UN Standar US, beserta pernak-perniknya seperti SAT Subject (Mat IPA & Kimia), TOEFL, dsb. Beribu-ribu esai dibuat, sampai-sampai harus dikategorikan dalam folder-folder. Esai-esai pertama: perlu dibuat outline, ide-ide, dan pin-poin yang penting diutarakan. Sampai esai ke-5 sudah lanccar dibuat kerangka di kepala. Entah. Setelah tahun baruan yang digunakan untuk apply univ, I'm supposed to be done.
But, no. Masih ada tahap-tahap selanjutnya. Guru-guru yang dikejar untuk isi rekomendasi, interrview-interview yang menyusul...
Ah, interviews.
Honestly it has never been specifically uttered, what the interview entails. People panic if they get one (What was wrong with my application?) and if they don't get one (Was it not enough?). If I get an interview, does it mean that I passed the first filtering? Or is it that they are not sure where to put me. Lots of amazing candidates don't get interviews and non-amazing ones who do. You never know, and that's more unnerving, in my opinion.
I've had one interview so far, and as far as I can tell, it went pretty damn well.
I've got one more on the way, and I made unexpected acquaintances in unexpected places (namely, my parents' newly-found rental house). [You can tell by now that I give up on blogging in Indonesian]
HreMs Rina said that they don't just give everyone interviews, but I don't want to place my hope on that. I already know the pain of rejection. I know this is such a big deal and I'm really, really scared. My next one is next week, right after the first day of practical exams. Wish me luck, readers and internet deities.
I've written paragraphs bout college but I haven't even stated my major. I'm all over the place, honestly. After two years in IPA I've realized that I'm more than that one dimension. I want to study lots of things, from different (and even preferably) different views. I want to look at the sunset and see, not only wavelengths and optical vision, but also the beauty in the way the earth moves, or even the assortment of colors. That's why I pick vague majors like FInancial Engineering, Operations Systems and Engineering, and Financial Mathematics. I'm quite content with this assortment.
Either way, I'll know the results by the time National Exams come up. I want that time to pass by quickly (to get my results), but slowly (to halt UN because I'm scared) at the same time.
As usual, I'm conflicted.
Here's where I took my SAT Classes, by the way. I improved by almost 400 point so all that thought and effort must have been for the greater good.
I've written paragraphs bout college but I haven't even stated my major. I'm all over the place, honestly. After two years in IPA I've realized that I'm more than that one dimension. I want to study lots of things, from different (and even preferably) different views. I want to look at the sunset and see, not only wavelengths and optical vision, but also the beauty in the way the earth moves, or even the assortment of colors. That's why I pick vague majors like FInancial Engineering, Operations Systems and Engineering, and Financial Mathematics. I'm quite content with this assortment.
Either way, I'll know the results by the time National Exams come up. I want that time to pass by quickly (to get my results), but slowly (to halt UN because I'm scared) at the same time.
As usual, I'm conflicted.
Here's where I took my SAT Classes, by the way. I improved by almost 400 point so all that thought and effort must have been for the greater good.
On a lighter note, here are some playlists that has been on constant repeat-peat-peat. My only saving grace from all these examinations. Fair warning, they're all jazz.